Depressive Song.

I shot for the sky, I'm stuck on the ground.

So why do I try? I know I'm gonna fall down

Hello readers, I found a song today that I absolutely love. It's called Down by Jason Walker, I first found it as it was played during the break-up scene in Vampire Diaries and I have been searching for it since. Well yesterday I struck a gold mine and found it on youtube, after showing to meinen buddy Fred he send it to me in MP3 format (Thank you for that) and I have not stopped listening to it since, yes you may be thinking wowee that's good so why is this post called depressive song?

Well after having listened to it for so long i've realised how sad it really is, it's not about trying and sucseeding, it's all about someone giving up hope. I know it's crazy and I talk about this a lot on here but I have given up hope on various situations and listening to this song is the first time I have actually sat down and thought through everything and honestly? It's the first time i've cried for everything. The loosing my friends, the incident of two weeks ago monday and everything in-between.

Sure, if you think i'm being wierd or soppy or just depressive then you may as well stop reading because when i listened to this song i felt guilt and an intense pain and sadness (no, it isn't "that time of the month" so that has nothing to do with it!) This song for me is all about someone who's put themselves out there and who has taken a risk, thinking that everything was going to be okay. The next thing they know it's all gone horribly wrong and everything falls apart. Story of my life.

No, I'm not usually this depressive in my posts so this really is a one of but I just thought I should warn everyone who's feeling sad not to listen to this song because it really is awfully depressive but beautiful at the same time and the whole mixture of piano, guitar and vocals just work so brilliantly together in perfect harmony I don't think you could find another song quiet like this on.

Anyways Harri over and out

(Staying in bed all day is not an option, even if I wanted to)

xox

HarrietCorey

halloween at home

Spooky stories, camp fire's, trick or treat

msn and homework

Halloween, a time for us to all dress up, have a laugh and be with our friends under a spooky moon at the dead of night. Not this year, last year I spend Halloween with my best friend's family, previous years i've spent it at a friends Halloween party (complete with pumpkin carving) this year? Home with the family watching Antiques Road-show.

One of my friends is having a party tomorrow, sure i'm invited. BUT I HAVE PLAY PRACTISE. That's right, I do love my acting and I wouldn't change it for anything in the world, but I also love my social life and three of my best friends that I haven't seen in months because of the government making catching a bus to school FAR TOO EXPENSIVE!

As you can probably tell I'm not very impressed. I look forward to this half term every year, it holds the promise of at least one party and several meetups with friends, yes i'm seeing my school friends but NO PARTIES.

I'm childish I know I know, but seriously! My friends are raving about this party with everyone and I CAN'T JOIN IN.

Yes, I know this isn't really an insightful post or anything that interesting but really, I just want to go out and have a good time tomorrow night! I even knew what I was going to go as! See the theme is your favorite film/tv program and I was going to do my hair all pretty and go as one of the girls from Gossip Girl so I could wear my new heels and my dress that I haven't worn in AGES.

So what if I have to pay to go to the party (It's not that much) and so what if it's going to be cold and probably (no offense Greg I do love you but...) it won't be as good as everyone is building it up to be because these things just never ever are! So what if I will know hardly anyone... SO WHO FRIGGIN CARES!

I do sound like a petulant child, and as a teen you would expect me to also mention how badly I want to get drunk, but i'm not that sort of teen. (Plus there won't be alcohol) so that doesn't count for anything just in-case anyone was wondering!

I just want to go and have a good time because it's not often I get invited to parties like this!

I must go now, not only will my internet run out in... 9 minuets but I have worked myself up into a state and I desperately feel the need to go and scream into a pillow. No. I. Am. Not. Joking.

xox

HarrietCorey

(your ever faithful stay at home)

700 views...

700 Views... OHMYGOSH

I wonder if I'll have 1000 soon?

My viewers, readers, friends and lovers thank you so much! You have all made my day, something amazing would have to happen to top this! So I came on-line to talk about maybe feel good songs and quotes and stuff that makes me feel amazing on a bad day... but then I thought "I wonder how many views I've had in the last few weeks" because I may be vain but I don't check everyday and I honestly had to check three times because according to my little counter I'm up to 700 views... last time I checked I was on 521 so that's nearly 200 views in a week and a bit!

So thank you so much everyone who has read my blog and shown your friends and voted in the poll (If you haven't then please do because I find the results interesting) So even though I'm sat in my room listening to last weeks chart show writing an English essay about Willy Loman from "Death of a Salesman" I couldn't help but write a very quick message to you all saying thank you thank you thank you! You will never know how good this feels unless it happens to you and I know I thank my friends a lot by mentions but it's about time I thank people I don't know too!

So my lovelies this one is for you :D

xox

HarrietCorey

p.s i will do a proper blog post in a bit once i've finished my essay!

admirations, musings and foolish thinkings.

thank you's, heartfelt musings and more.

I made the best mistake ever today.

Following up my last post, which I know was only yesterday, I did something I never thought i'd be able to do and plucked up the courage to tell the guy I like that I like him.

"Harri that was so brave" Is all I've heard from my friends since I did it and honestly? It doesn't feel that way, it feels great to have it off my chest but no matter how good it may feel it's always going to feel a little bit awful which is where a mother who understands my pain and gives me lots of chocolate comes in handy.

Of course, now i've done it I would recommend talking to a guy you like face to face over msn anyday (which I had thought about and was very close to doing) seriously. I think it hurts a lot less, previous msn disasters make me realise this, we always assume the worst of people when we want to tell them we like them. I thought I was going to be laughed at and mocked and ignored and feel completely useless and humiliated and regret it.

However some people don't seem to be as bad as all this. Instead I got a hug and a smile and more than that I felt respected, I wasn't laughed at or mocked (not yet at least) and this really has given me a little more inspiration when it comes to the humanity in this world and this kind of feeling you can't get over msn sure a guy that then goes *hugs* is good but it's nothing compared to the real thing, and I seriously admire you if you've had the guts to tell someone you like them to their face, equally I admire anyone who can sit there and smile and let someone down nicely after they've built up that courage, not many people I know can or ever will do that so just wanted to say thank you so much for that.

Moving back onto the topic (if only slightly) A famous teacher at my school (She has blonde and purple hair if ya know who I mean ;) ) Once told my english class that there is a thing called the human condition "we're born, we live, we die" everything else is a filler and doesn't really matter. Well sat here on my stairs I can't help but wonder if she is wrong. It's these moments and decisions in our lives that make them special, so what if I die tomorrow, or in thirty years time. It doesn't matter because now I won't be wondering "what if..." I won't be sat in my room thinking that maybe if i'd told him I would have had a chance... the only thing I can think now is... "What if he lied" and even i'm not stupid enough to think that, contrary to what some of my friends may believe!

So my readers, this doesn't really say much to you I guess. It's just a way of me trying to describe what is going through my mind at the moment and personally what I have said seems okay to me, even if it isn't as interesting as some of you may have hoped for! The long and the sort of it is that we only live once, our lives are short and there is nothing we can do to prolong it. Everything we do or don't do counts for something and why spend our existence worrying over how someone may view us? If it works out then brilliant! You can go to sleep at night feeling loved and comforted by the idea that someone out there is loving you and counting the minuets until they see you again. If it doesn't work out then don't worry, it hurts and I know that more than anything else right now but it's not the end and all you can do is remind yourself of that every time you feel low, don't listen to the sad songs and the hopelessly romantic songs. Listen to the songs that make you smile and laugh think of the times you've had and the times to come and know that eating chocolate and ice cream while crying over a sad film is not the end of the world, moan for a little while but slowly get back on your feet, smile and face the world again because nothing can make you feel better than knowing that though it all you kept your head held high and no matter how things turn out you know that you did what you had to do, you heard what you had to hear and life will seem so much better for it.

I'm sorry if that didn't make much sense... it took me a while to write that since I'm not 100% sure about what my head is thinking at the moment and following the heart is all I can do for the moment, and i'm glad I did because now I can sleep easy at night and get back to what is really important in my life! Friends, Family, Acting and of course School! :D

But there are a few people I want to thank more than anything in the world for just being there for me and also advancely thank you for all the hugs i'm going to demand off them tomorrow:

Emma, Millie, Rhiannon, Abby, James, Alex, Allya, Harriet and Jasmine

Love you all rather a lot

(There are loads more but those guys just deserve to be mentioned for now)

So as ever my blog readers, thank you for bearing with my rambling and much love from me on my staircase!

xox

HarrietCorey

(8) you belong with me (8)

"Ohmygosh. He wrote me a song!"

Great. Show off why don't you!

Hello my loverlies! I decided that I'd rather write this post sooner rather than later since otherwise I would forget all the wonderful songs I wanted to share with you! Some people choose an outright "I really like you will you go out with me?" method. Some people get their friends to do the dirty work and some people will secretly post notes into your locker.

Personally I'm too shy to do any of the above, so when sat around a table at a meal with four of my gorgus girls from Theatre Studies (You know who you are!) We were thinking of all the ways to tell someone that you liked them subtly without making a complete fool out of yourself!

Our solution: Music.

So I thought, I know, I will share this with my internet looker-ons and see what they think, So here we go with my top 10 songs to tell somone you like them (This is before the whole going out part, so i'm going to try to avoid songs with "love" in them. As no-one ever loves someone before they start going out.)

1. Number One: Jesse McCartney's "just so you know"

I love this song, for me it's all about a guy who see's a girl he really likes everyday and he knows he shouldn't be feeling this way about her. He's tried everything to move on from her but simply can't, "it was always there just never spoken" I found this a perfect song because it shows every emotion you could be feeling when you're waiting for the right time to tell someone you like them.

2. Number Two: Taylor Swift's "you belong with me"

A very over-played song, but one that could explain everything about a situation, maybe you've heard the guy/girl you like has a crush on someone else and hounestly. I've been there, it sucks and everytime I think about it I can't help but think of this song and it makes me feel so much better. I'll tell you a funny (personal) story. I accidentally played this when I was listening to someone's music with them and when I showed my friend we burst into hysterics (In a very quiet room) and it got so bad I had to go outside and calm down. Oblivious the person I was sharing the headphones with had no idea what had happened and why me and my friend were laughing so much. oops.

3. Number Three: Enrique Iglesias' "hero"

I know, I know. Typical love song but who could possibly argue with the impossibly sexy voice of one of the worlds most gorgeous male specimens (Sorry guys, it's true! Look and sound like him and any girl would be yours) This song I'd rather advise guys to send to girls... Girls the guys may think you're a little weird sending them this since it is unfortunately a predominately female song.

4. Number Four: The Carpenters' "close to you"

One of my most amazingly talented and crazy friends Allya showed me this song and honestly? I think I fell in love with it! I'm not sure i'm in the correct position (Having only just heard the song) to judge the meaning behind it or in what situations you could use this, but one thing I know is the melody is beautiful and the lyrics hypnotic. (If a little repetitive)

5. Number Five: Alanis Morissette's "head over feet"

This song is one of my oldest and favoritest love songs, it's all about someone falling in love for someone just because of who they are (If you notice in the lyrics she never once mentions appearance, making this a truly un-shallow song) I'm not sure why I like this song so much as the undercurrent suggests that she doesn't really want to like this guy (but lets just pretend the world doesn't look into songs as much as I do and just call it a lovely song no?)

LOOKIE! I'm half way through! Only 5 more songs to go until the final hurrah!

6. Number Six: Maroon 5's "Stutter"

I heard this song last week, and I already know all the words I love it that much. I would recommend this one if you wanted something that's not quiet so serious and a little bit more upbeat than my other choices. This one was particularly good for me because I keep forgetting how to speak when I talk to the guy I like (and me not speaking is a very big deal) The only thing I would say about this one is it's not as serious as the others so be warned they may not understand it as well!

7. Number Seven: Shane Ward's "Breathless"

This goes against what I was saying a little by being very heavily focused on the word "Love" and is more about the future but it's defiantly one of those feel good songs! Again this is one i'd probably only expect guys to send to girls (Since it's another of those really soppy ones with lots of cute images of kids aka. "I would fall deeper watching you give life" somehow not the kind of thing I'd send to a sixteen year old!) Still wait until you get to twenty and a guy gets up on a karaoke night and sings this, then you will understand why this is on my list!

8. Number Eight: Glee's "taking chances"

(Originally by Celine Dion so you could use her version but her voice annoys me)

This I think is particularly good for when you meet someone and instantly take a liking to them, it explores how you can still like someone even if you don't actually know that much about them! It also shows that actually, things may not last and may not work out but you won't know until you try. Best bit about this song? It isn't too forward and it isn't too soppy! Also it's not hard to sing so you could always try your own cover to show the lucky lad/lady.

9. Number Nine: Ronan Keating's "if tomorrow never comes"

Another suggestion from Allya (she's quiet good with the soppy love songs) As soon as she said it I agreed, although this again is one i'd probably only use if I was going out with someone, but then that's just me. It reminds me again of the whole "life only happens once, you aren't going to get a second chance so just go with it and live each day like it's your last" (That is a paraphrased quote from the beautiful Emma, who's also extremely good when it comes to liking guys and not knowing what to do, not that I've listened to her advice)

Now for a big BIG drum-roll for my final (and personal favourite song)

10. Number Ten: Little Mermaid on Broadway's "if only"

There is no doubt that this is my ultimate favourite "tell him you love him song" and there are several reasons why: One: She's in exactly the same position as me, so badly wanting to say something but having no idea what or how to say it. Two: The music and the lyrics are simply beautiful. Three: Oh the paranoia. The whole idea of it being so obvious to everyone but the person you like that you like them it almost drives you crazy and this song shows that.

So there you have it my friends and followers and enemies!

My top ten list of songs to tell someone you like that you like them!

I'd like to point out i'd be extremely great-full if you told me what you think of those so leave a comment if you wish, or even if you don't wish and tell me what you think, also any other suggestions would be cool!

Mucho love from the land of behind the sofa (Yes, it's freezing at the moment so i'm sat behind the sofa with my back against a radiator writing and sourcing this!)

xox

HarrietCorey

Did you miss me?

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

I wish.

Hello all my wonderful readers, I know, it's been far too long and i'm awfully sorry about that. I'm not sure what came over me but I had no inspiration and admittedly no time! So my poor blog suffered from this, but hey! it's October now and life goes on!

I have two things to natter about today, the first being sixth form and the other a very interesting conversation I had with some friends over a meal about the best songs to tell someone you like them (I know, how sad but really it was quiet interesting)

So before we go onto the songs... THERE ARE BOYS IN MY SCHOOL AND IT ISN'T RIGHT. Of course, i'm not complaining the ones i've spoken to are very nice indeed but I can't seem to get my head around the fact that when we are in English class now the guys get picked to read Macbeth... who until this year had a very high pitched girly voice. (Simply because all we had were girls so inevitably a girl would read the part) So now every time we start to read I flinch a little bit at the sound of a deep voiced Macbeth ( it's just not right I tell you!)

Also with the ratio of boys to girls being 40/30 to the girls it's no wonder that the school yard gossip has turned into who is going out with who and who likes who and why so-and-so won't talk to that guy and what do the guys think of our hair... blah blah blah. Unfortunately there have been rumours spread that just are not true! (and you know how good I am about changing names so anyone new who's reading this don't you worry! I'm not about to disclose who you are seemingly "in love with")

• One guy in our sixth form has told all his friends outside of school that pretty much every girl in our year likes him and is queuing up to get off with him (This isn't true)

• One of the girls is being named a "flirt" and J-Lo (she's a good friend she wont mind me saying who she is pretty much) why J-Lo? Well according to the guys she has a big ass. How mature?

• There are so far... three couples? At least that's as many as I know about and at least two "going-to-be-couples"

• Miss V. (Head of our year) has found out about one of these couples and is persisting to tease them much to the enjoyment of the rest of the year

• One certain boy in our year has (and this was counted last Tuesday so it may be more or less by now) 8 girls who like him, who he likes? No-one knows.

• Also acourding to the gossip I like two guys :D Neither of these are actually true! Sure, I do like someone but neither of the guys i'm rumoured to like (how strange!)

So there you have it my friends and stalkers!

School ground gossip gone mad!

I wonder if any of you know who i'm talking about in those little snippets!

Anyways I shall write a separate entry on the music because it needs more than a few lines

Mucho Love

xox

HarrietCorey